Day one

Ali je prav, da se včasih dolgočasim? Il dolce far niente

Trenutno imam službo, pri kateri se občasno pojavljajo obdobja, ko je manj dela. Za ljudi, kot sem jaz, pa to lahko predstavlja težavo, saj se takrat vklopijo možgani, ker imajo seveda preveč časa. Potem se začnejo ruminacije. Danes sem imel zanimiv pogovor s psihoterapevtko, ker sem ji omenil, da sem nesrečen v službi in da jo bom moral zamenjati. Podala mi je poučen komentar, da se včasih dolgočasiti ni nujno tako zelo slabo. Človek se mora naučiti živeti tudi sam s sabo in s svojimi mislimi ter izkoristiti obdobja dolgčasa. Bolj¸ ko razmišljam o tem, bolj se strinjam. Vprašanje je, kaj mi trenutno manjka? Pravzaprav nič. Seveda bi lahko izboljšal kakšno stvar, vendar lahko vedno izboljšamo nekaj. Dodatno se učim italijanščine in veliko berem, ker me to zamoti. Vendar, ali znam biti sam s seboj v tišini in s prazno glavo? Trenutno ne, vendar lahko to postane moj cilj. Ali moram res menjati službo, ker je premalo izziva? Verjetno ne, že tako ali tako sem anksiozen. Zakaj bi dodajal nov stres? Ali se lahko naučim uživati v brezdelju? Zagotovo se lahko. Poznate knjigo in film Jej, moli in ljubi. No, jaz sem prebral knjigo in pogledal film. Italijanski stavek v filmu Il dolce far niente, tj. "the sweetness of doing nothing". Ali lahko postane moj moto? Poskusimo z manj razmišljanja...

Is it okay to be bored sometimes?

I currently have a job where there are occasional periods with less work. For people like me, this can be problematic because it gives my mind too much time, and then the ruminations begin. Today, I had an interesting conversation with my therapist because I mentioned that I'm unhappy at work and that I'll need to change jobs. She gave me a thoughtful comment: sometimes being bored isn't necessarily a bad thing. A person needs to learn to live with themselves and their thoughts and use the periods of boredom wisely. The more I think about it, the more I agree. The question is, what am I currently unhappy about? Actually, nothing. Of course, I could improve a few things, but there’s always something that can be improved. I'm also learning Italian and reading a lot because it keeps me occupied. However, can I sit alone with myself in silence and an empty mind? Not yet, but that can become my goal. Do I really need to change jobs because there's not enough challenge? Probably not; I'm already anxious enough. Why add more stress? Can I learn to enjoy idleness? Surely, I can. Do you know the book and movie Eat, Pray, Love? Well, I've read the book and seen the movie. The Italian phrase in the film, Il dolce far niente, meaning "the sweetness of doing nothing." Can this become my motto? Let's try with less thinking...